My life is pretty hectic, but I like it that way.
Ask me anything
Anonymous asked: we used to be like best friends and talk about everything. you seem so sad and i still care about you. please talk to me about what's going on. I promise i wont judge you. I've been through so much emotion, i promise you i will be there for you if you let me. -love, concerned family member.
Courtney I love you. I’m assuming this is Courtney cause we used to be way closer. I’ve just hit a stupid rough patch in my life and I’m trying really ducking hard to get my life together. Text me more. See me more. I will always love you. And I’m sorry I’m not around as much as I used to be..
FUCK MY DAD FOR BEING A DRUNK AND AN ASSHOLE. I fucking told him I was having a shitty day and to give the phone to my mom cause I need her. And so he went off like he always does…how could you say such hurtful things to your own daughter. It’s like he wants me to hate myself.
Also fuck hospitals. I hate seeing my grandma there. The worst part is her alzheimer’s is as bad as it’s going to get…it hurts so bad to see her and her not remember me anymore.
I never want to go back home. Home is NOT home. I never meet up to anyone’s expectations. I’m never enough for anyone. Not even my own family. This is when I start drifting. And this is where my breaking point is going to collapse. And if I relapse I’m going to hate myself even more…I’m so sick of everyone..
I feel like ripping apart my skin,
and searching for a reason for why
I feel this empty.
Maybe my veins are tangled,
or something is lodged
in my ribcage.
Because it feels like
something inside of me is
missing or broken. Unknown (via skeezd)